Big Fish!!! > Quest for a Bigger one

****Posting a long Written Entry****

The weekend , had a real nice and fruitful discussion with Rekha on our project, lives, transaction from college till data, career prospects and all those subjects we never thought we'd talk of. And the results were Superlative!!!
Here goes a retrospective gist for my own reference whenever and wherever i feel (and of course for all of you out there reading it).

Its been more than an year working in the software industry (of India), working on diverse fields and routine jobs , mundane jargon's , and (un)necessory processes , working your way into destruction of your self , yet wondering each time .. Woah how did i do this to ME.

This is the phase , where people start contemplating on the future.
This is the phase , when your parents start thinking of your partner (and u too).
This is the phase , When people feel the Pinch to do the thing which the Utmost want to do, And
This is the phase , When You have the Max ,and justifiably Equal Fear of Failure!!!

Lets take'em one by one.

This is the Phase , Where people start Contemplating on the future !
Really?
Not actually , rather this is the period they start looking back , this is the phase when they look at themselves as what they could have been, This is the phase, when people don't have a dream , not a real , a new one , so they go on dig their past , try to bring out the hidden dream.
The one which had always been there, but neglected.
Why now?
Because people don't really know what else to do, they can't think of anything worth a penny.
This is the time by which their sense of self is long dead,
and This is the time , which if and will , make their future.
Hazy!!!???
We'll back Come to it (or rather we'll have to come back to it)

This is the phase , when your parents start thinking of your partner (and u too).
Yeah rite, You accept or not (Guys won't , girls WILL), but this is the time of life , when you are most frustrated, when you need someone , someone apart from ur dear friends, whom u may tell all , whom you may scream out loud, and who .. in spite of all this, will turn up to you whenever he/she has a problem/solution.
Your parents , get confused with your behaviour , your rudeness, your abstractness, your new lifestyle, suddenly the generation gap Widens, Its everywhere , the look helpless , what has happened to their lovely lad/lass.
and wollah , they look for an adapter ;)
An adapter who fits into ur generation , and connects you with the old gen of theirs, so as the vibes are back on track.
PERRRRFECT

This is the phase , When people feel the Pinch to do the thing which the Utmost want to do
ok , al rite . Yes , this is the phase , when most of the Entrepreneurs began their insight, their vision, their Goal.
Frustration opens the eye, and scarcity brings innovation.
IFF (extra F intended ;) ) you are feeling content with the job you are in , IFF you are happy with the stuff you are doing, and IFF you see no harm in continuing.
Congratulations my friend, you have found the destination , Catch up to it.
Very rarely people do find the Satisfaction.
BUT , IF you are sad whenever something good happens to someone around you, or IF you feel a pinch to do something, but donno what, or IF you are just unhappy at times , and find solace in itsy bitsy happiness scattered everywhere.

THEN you probably need some more time with yourself, you need a thorough soul searching , you need to weigh your choices, and yesss you need a change in life.

This is the phase , When You have the Max ,and justifiably Equal Fear of Failure!!!
When you were young (College) , you had no Job , No money , all play and mind was a free bee,
You had parents to fall back on (you still do),You had castles to make , you had plans to execute, You had DREAMS , Each day anew !!!
Innovation , Ideas, Thoughts ... they all came in a free way.
You had no binary actions to do, you had so many options to choose or to ignore.
BUT
Now is not the time (Some people may argue , and rightly so),
You have a Fat check coming in ,
You have Liabilities transferred on to you,
You have a Lifestyle change , which is cumbersome to change,
You don't really have a friend backing (distances matter),
You are too confused to go on,
You weigh Decisions on Results , not on belief.

You start thinking about your parents , you start contemplating on your career, you see monetary loss, You start bargaining with your soul, You don't know what to do, You seek advices from people , but have your own in place ,
You start looking for a better place , but you hardly know what's better.
You either follow the herd straight away (do an MBA in most of the cases , as it pays money and power),
or
you follow your past dreams (based on inputs from people around you, who know nothing about you),
or
you bargain yourselves with quite many past and future options , and rather select the current one.
You end up ...
Being a Fish, Looking for a Bigger Fish